Soaking it all in: my choice

Monday, August 26, 2013

As I was enjoying my weekend here in Hawaii with Timmy (i.e. surprise news of a Big Island trip, Lanikai beach, Lanikai Juice, North Shore, Chinaman's Hat, the Commissary & Whole Foods), I realized: For the first time in my life, I am not positive about what my next step is. I've accepted a job in Chicago but it's contingent upon passing the bar the first time. I'm currently living in Hawaii with Tim but I'd have to leave to get ready for my move. And regardless, there's a chance he'll be deploying. But if he doesn't and I don't wind up in Chicago - do I stay here to study or head back home and study there, and would we live in NY or NJ? And what about a job for me??
 
It's all very scary and those questions stress me out. But I've made the choice not to dwell on them because it's out of my hands right now. So as stressful as it can be, I'm actually RELIEVED. I'm relieved to have this down time. To have this quality time with T. To be living in this paradise. I'm choosing to soak it all in and enjoy this life right now. I'm choosing not to stress about the future. I'm choosing to be (as) carefree (as I can be). The future will inevitably come and decisions will be made. Everything will work out. One thing is for certain - this experience of living in Hawaii with my love is a once in a lifetime opportunity. I won't waste it worrying. 
 
I will embrace the uncertainty that lies ahead to savor every single moment here
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Linkups: Weekend Shenanigans, Monday Mingling
 

5 comments :

  1. First, congratulations on graduating from Law School! That alone is a BIG accomplishment, and not something everyone can say they've done. I'm sure whatever you and Tim decide is for the best, and as long as you support each others dreams and goals you will be happy. I wish you all the very best, and I can't wait to hear about your next big step!! xoxo :)

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  2. I'm so glad you are choosing to just enjoy life right now before it gets crazy. Hugs!

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  3. That's awesome. Definitely do not waste it worrying. You'll look back and think, "Those were the days." Enjoy them now.

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  4. Good choice to live in the moment :)
    I look forward to hearing more about all your Hawaiian adventures :)

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  5. You go girl! We all should be doing this... every moment counts! Thanks for reminding me!

    -Kate
    www.theflorkens.com

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